Be Strong

Wooooahhh!
JUst looking for a word.

My dear friend Mali who runs the Bongkot Thai Restaurant on 4th Street said.. 'Be Strong' to me in her parting words wednesday night when I needed some good food and soul sustenance. I had told her about the Kidney Stone. It really had been in a state of overall calm since Sunday Afternoon's ER visit.

I have been taking Vicodin and now Percoset. I thought earlier today maybe at one moment that it had passed I felt pretty good for a few minutes. Now I am dealing with what I can hope and pray is the final passing into the bladder. I don't know. It might not do what I wish it to do... be over tonight.

I thank her for those words again. Be Strong. Sometimes we have to be reminded, it's good to hear that challenge. It's not a given -- for some of us we hope, we aspire. To pass the courage challenge. So that's what I am working on. Try to do some mind over matter. Maybe it is lightening up.

I heard Emmy Lou Harris's story only a few weeks ago about needing some suffering to season up. I don't know where I heard it somewhere on the web no doubt. She wrote a letter when she was quite young introducing herself to Pete Seeger and asking for his suggestions as to how best a young woman could get some life experiences that would help her be able to be more authentic when singing real deep bluesy material. Pete wrote back and said 'Please Emmy Lou do not run out and hop on a freight train .. suffering catches up with all of us'

On a positive note here and that is most important in this very positive if we allow it year 2012. Some of you know Gabe the friendly carpenter who hangs out a lot in San Anselmo who may seem homeless, but a good guy, who somehow gets by. Not Gabe the blues guitarist) We talked in front of the town hall on some beautiful day. Probably I brought up the subject but somehow he went on at length about the Human Brain and how it is divided in half a Left and Right and most of you know that there are some generalizations made about artist vs. engineer in the Left Brain Right Brain division though I suspect that our brains are being used to the best of our abilities. Losing my thread the Percoset in my bloodstream is gained a bit of a higher profile... Maybe I am under the influence but in General I think our country is getting the short end of the stick because every one is so So deep into castigation instead of synthesis. You are all dumb because look at that dumb idiot. HawHaw Haw!

Can I make myself clearer? ( ) The cliff to the Left looks as dangerous as the one to the Right. Free the Center and hold tight. Red White and Blue unite. DeCentralized slowed down USA where we got plenty of music everyone gets some kind of home, slow down the immigration tide (I know it's slowing already. Good!)

'Unlimited growth is the philosophy of Cancer' ... American farmer

Cancer is where we are at. It's not good . remission is good. Tyranny isn't good and it comes from Left and Right. Wrapped in insecurity. Just being good at passing laws is not necessarily mean you are doing the people of California any favors. Congressional Candidate Jared Huffman is proud of the 60 bills he sponsored or co-sponsored during his 6 years as an assemblyman. I mean if we democratically keep passing laws that alter your 'Freedom' that's not creating a tyranny is it?

I was a T Party sympathizer and even declared myself to be a T Party dude at that moment . I still believe that a Conservative approach is needed right now as opposed to let the Government put another million people on the payroll. Don't be over simplistic Guy! Sorry you are right don't be over simplistic but that gives you an idea where I am coming from. For some historical perspective for you young folks I twice voted for Ross Perot the 3rd party candidate who was at about 33% in the polls in June before what was it 1992?... That means that fear was rampant in the Democrats and Republicans, he could could have been our President. Ross was a businessman who was against the Globalization of the American Economy pretty much against the stuff that Mitt Romney made his millions on. Buying out companies looting their resources, shipping jobs overseas. Ross warned of 'the Giant Sucking Sound' as he described it as we loosened up all the barriers for shipping factories overseas and Bill Clinton loosened up the Banking Industries so all kinds of money was being made on speculation on anything,

That's enough for tonight if you made it here thanks for your patience. The Percoset has kicked in enough or the pain has relented enough that I can probably lay down and not have to make you listen to my Under the INfluence ramble any longer.
Feel free to tell me off in any way.