Heart of Mine

My Life. On Dad's birthday it is almost 7:00 AM in California.
I have not slept yet. There are repercussions to my lifestyle.. it's not a lifestyle it's a DisEase of a major magnitude.
From Ativan to Tylenol PM ... ER visit.... Psyche ER visit yukkk! Over the last few weeks. Building over the years.

This Heart of mine, may not last much longer.

Incredible love and help from my little healing community on every level. I can't take it home with me, I try -- all the inspiration,
the hugs the love. Last night cab driving I thought I had made it through the passage. Maybe it was the Rescue Remedy my Mom
recommended.. it cooled me out and my optimism gained strength through the night.

Let's talk.. I'm a mess. Major guilt complex. Dream big complete nothing. Run from love. Not good.

This blog is coming to an end. My voice if it survives will have to find another channel.

I described myself as a tough nut to someone last year what I meant by that was my shell.
That shell has to open up. Maybe it is time for God to take me back or maybe I will
find my way to be Guy Wheeler Meyer, Jr.